Body Of Christ

For as the body is one and has many members, but all the members of that one body, being many, are one body, so also is Christ. For by one Spirit we were all baptized into one body-whether Jews or Greeks, whether slaves or free-and have all been made to drink into one Spirit. For in fact the body is not one member but many. 1 Corinthians 12:12-14


I read this passage this morning with two other members of my christian club and it was great timing to read what it had to say. The passage talks about the body of Christ. We're all unified together and even though our roles may be different, we all depend on each other. Later on in the chapter it talks about the different roles or body parts. If the foot should say, "Because I am not a hand, I am not of the body". Despite the different roles of because of the different gifts and talents granted to us, it does not mean one is more or less a part of the body. Sometimes it may feel like we're only but a toenail, but really the hand relies on the toenail, just as the toenail relies on the hand. Pastor Kim leaving really tears my heart. I think back at all the times Tim invited me over his house, the bbq's the sleepovers, just everything. Never have i ever seen them complain, or get angry at us. It would take me forever to give back anywhere close to what they've given me. I remember when the pastor for the american congregation back in our old church spoke to us about feeding our ox, pastor kim. In a sense, it feels like i personally have failed them in supporting them. But i know both are stronger then i can ever imagine. He was the head of our church, but that doesnt mean we've lost our identity. We still belong to the body of christ no matter what.

memento

Hey all, i've been having a pretty chill break. Sorry for those who had school lol. Im gonna base my entire blog of a really really interesting movie, so if you plan on watching memento, i suggest you dont read this lol. So Memento is about lenny, who doesnt have short memory. His wife was being attacked and raped, and lenny tries to save her. However, he gets thrown into a mirror, and loses all short term memory after that incident. Basically he cant remember anything past 15 minutes. Even though he doesnt remember anything, he leaves clues, notes, photos to help him remember his issue and his wife. His entire life's purpose is now to find the murderer of his wife. Even though he wont remember him killing the man, thats all he does now. The movie acutally goes in reverse chronological order, so you see the last thing that happens. It's kinda like a puzzle b/c you try and figure out who to believe, what acutally happened. Now here's the spoiler, the last thing that happens, or the first scene, is him killing who he thinks is the real murderer. The last scene, as in the firs tthing that happens, is that he acutally killed the man a long time ago. But since he knows he wont remember antyhing he takes advantage of that and gives himself fake clues to just keep killing more supposed murderers to give his life meaning.


It was a shocking ending to me, to see how much you deceive yourself, stray away from truth, just to find a pseudo purpose in life. That might seem like a hyperbole for society, and what they're looking for, but i dont neccessarily think thats true. So many people are seeking these phantoms and ghosts that are so unbelievably unachievable. Parents pushing their kids to Harvard, stalkers, athletes using steriods, etc etc. I mean really, lenny faking a life isnt that far fetched to alot of people. So then we have to ask ourselves, what the difference b/w lenny and christians? Lenny's chasing someone that doesnt exist anymore, we're looking for something that can't be physically seen or heard or touched. So then what's the biggest difference because to Lenny, his own purpose at the end of the day feels just as real or even more real then our own purpose. The biggest difference is absolute truth. Period. Becuase really, if we didnt have the absolute truth that there is a God, and that he sent his only Son to die on a cross for our sins, if that isnt true, we're undoubtedly Lenny. But since we do have truth, we can continue to progress is whatever plan God does have for each and everyone of us because we know there will be consequence in what we do or do not do. We dont live our lives just for our own satisfaction, because then once we hit a rough patch we should just give up. But we dont, we perservere.

getting it done

Last tuesday my school had christian club, and for one reason or another not many people showed up. I think there was only around 10 kids but i found that meeting more rewarding then any of the other ones. I guess cause most of us are asian, we feel uncomfortable sharing our feelings, but since it was such a small group it was easier for people to talk. The question asked for everyone was what they're spiritual highs and lows were during the past year. I gave my answer first. I said my high was during the summer becuase i got to hang out with the kids at church a lot and i ended up going to church many times every week. There was also the retreat which was a real blessing. Then i said my low was during midterms because school often times has priority over everything basically. It's really hard to try and prioritize everything when literally everyone around you, including your parents, tell you that school is most important. So as i heard other people share, i found that a lot of them had the same exact answer as me. It was encouraging to hear them talk about their spiritual walks, but at the same thing it was discouraging to hear how all of us were succumbing to the same issues and pressures. When i was thinking about this issue, i was saying to myself, "Man senior year is gonna be great then. i wont have to worry about school." But then what does that say to God? Becuase what im basically saying is, i dont got the time right now so God just wait a couple months. Is that right? Absolutely not. I know it's gonna be hard but im really hoping that i don't waste this junior year. There's so much to offer God by sacrificing yourself at your most vulnerable point. I just want to humble myself so much to the point that i have no other option BUT to fall on my knees in front of God. No more excuses. No more rationalizing.